excerpts from lady gaga's song...
Let's play a love game,
play a love game
Do you want love or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Doin' the love game
Been quiet here for the past months!
I just got to ask this question, why does it has to be games?
getting ready to blow my cake
and my wish is..
I make it a point to be positive always.
No room for negativity
Yes I cry, cry out loud if I need to…
Yes I hurt
Yes I suffer
Yes it pains me
Yes I undergo hardships in life
Yes I feel the heartbreaks
Yes I feel the humiliations
Yes I feel the stress and the pressure
After all those pessimism
I remain calm, peaceful and loved
I look up to my LORD, pray and sometimes question him what have I done or what have I not done for me to deserve all these damages.
And still I stand, face my new day with a smile always because I know My God loves me and will always give me something positive after all the adversities.
I only talk once about my problems, you would rarely hear me complain or utter unpleasant words against anybody or anything. I rather and chose always to talk about the fun stuff.
It upset me when my “SO CALLED FRIENDS” text me for help, they won’t even bother asking me if I am ok or if I feel good. They only know me when they need me.
Why? Do they know when I am in pain? Were any of them present during my darkest hour?
I sometimes tend to be too soft hearted with people because I am naturally a nice person it‘s not that obvious because a lot of people misjudge me.
I would like to thank my parents because they taught me on how to be independent on how not to bother other people or depend on other people.
If I ask for help it only means I am just trying to stir up attention and to have some company but not that abusive off course!
I am just fed up with many of my SO CALLED FRIENDS who just keep on neglecting me but when they want something they know me!
YouTube - Aaliyah - At Your Best
and why can't i not find a good MTV of my favorite song?
i cried when she died...
i used to imagine every time i hear this song way back 93
that aaliyah would be in my wedding serenading me and my would be hubby with this song
it always melts my heart out
i know its only an illusion
a fairy tale tailor made for me only
and i know one day, someday
it will come :D
Let me know, let me know
Ah - ha, let me know, let me know
Let me know
VERSE 1:
When I feel what I feel
Sometimes it's hard to tell you so
You may not be in the mood to learn what you think you know
There are times when I find
You want to keep yourself from me
When I don't have the strength; I'm just a mirror to what I see
CHORUS:
But at your best you are love
You're a positive motivating force within my life
Should you ever feel the need to wonder why
Let me know, let me know...
VERSE 2:
When you feel what you feel
Oh, how hard for me to understand
So many things have taken place before this love affair began
But if you feel, oh, like I feel
Confusion can give way to doubt
And there are times when I fall short of what I say,
What I say I'm all about, all about
CHORUS
BRIDGE:
Tell me what it is (Tell me what it is)
Make believe, no need to make believe
Look beyond your own (Look beyond your own)
Try and find another place for me
Cause...
CHORUS
Ah, ah, ah - ha
See, at your best baby
YouTube - Lisa Loeb - Stay (I Missed You)
not only she reminds me of my ever CAREFREE (who the hell cares) high school days
she really get me! she does!
as if she knows she needs to sing it for me
repeat (5x) playing and playing while driving...
everything about this song says it all...
the very famous black dress and eyeglasses...
You say I only hear what I want to.
You say I talk so all the time so.
And I thought what I felt was simple,
and I thought that I don't belong,
and now that I am leaving,
now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed you.
Yeah yeah, I missed you.
And you say I only hear what I want to:
I don't listen hard,
don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
to anyone, anywhere,
I don't understand if you really care,
I'm only hearing negative: no, no, no.
So I turned the radio on, I turned the radio up,
and this woman was singing my song:
lover's in love, and the other's run away,
lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay.
Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
dying since the day they were born.
Well, well, this is not that;
I think that I'm throwing, but I'm thrown.
And I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sure.
You try to tell me that I'm clever,
but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.
You said that I was naive,
and I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you.
Yeah, I miss you.
You said, "I caught you 'cause I want you and one day I'll let you go."
You try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you know you're just
scared to lose.
And you say, "Stay."
And you say I only hear what I want to.
YouTube - NB Ridaz - Notice Me
one of my favorite miami free style sounds...nice one! sad no video :C
I wasn't aware of this kinda music but i remember my trainer at epixtar francis collins every time we take a brake he would play this song on his laptop..
love it when angelina sings:
I've given everything (given everything)
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
I've given everything (yeah)
I loved you endlessly (oooh)
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
if your not familiar with N. B. ridaz you can check them at http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/NB_Ridaz
with ma. inah florence yap, mam rose and sir martin ledesma
on my left is eraculous...to the right, to the right is pets
camera date is delayed>>05.21.11
aside from my skin i love my legs and toes the second... i was a bit surprise when i saw these pictures that sir nits took... he was so keen with details... i barely wear high heels... when it comes to dressing up it is a passion... what can i do? i am a girly girl... thank you to sir nits again for capturing these pretty feet :)
IT WAS A bright clear june 11(2011) morning... as early as 5:30 a.m. i was already awake... considering i slept at 1 a.m... so sleep deprived again... but who cares... aS the corrs would sing... and it doesn't matter if we never sleep... Bataan bound... clueless where is ABUCAY!? that's juvy's hometown! it's juvy's moment with jc... aLONG with the baklang monkeys plus the lovers in paris... not to mention mam U in bad trip mode... call time was 6:30 A.M. but we left pampanga at around 7:40 a.m... no wonder mam u WAS pissed off!? HOWEVER it was a very hilarious road trip as always!?...would love to share my fave pic FOR this special occassion... sir NITS branch manager of CBC HENSON took IT...
YouTube - Candi - Love Makes No Promises
why can i not find this at frostwire and torentazos?
funny how the summer tend to fall
but now i feel the wind just chilled
cause love makes no promises
there's nothing i can do
i'm letting go of you
YouTube - Tracie Spencer - It's All About You (Not About Me)
When we first met
stole my heart away
Your love was incredible
Wonderful
Then you began to change
You used to make me feel special
Now all you do is make me cry
I gave you my everything baby
But all you gave me was lies
I, I try to be the one for baby, you you
never was into nothin'
what I do, do
Thats why Im leaving
'Cause its all about you
And not about me
YouTube - More Than Likely
Oh, what's the use in closing all the doors
That let the loving into you...
What's the use of loving if I learn
Not to feel anything at all, even if it means
The most to you....
YouTube - Lisa Loeb & Nine Stories - Do You Sleep?
i don't know, and i don't care
if i ever will see you again.
i don't know, and i don't care
if i ever will be there.
YouTube - The Lighthouse Family 'Ocean Drive' on The Late Late Show 2011
He left you black and blue
Without a word of explanation
And he took your love for granted and
He left you high and dry
But you know someday,
when you'll wonder what you see in him anyway
When that day arrives we'll live on..
YouTube - Brian McKnight - Anytime
Do I ever cross your mind, anytime?
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me?
Do I ever cross your mind anytime?
I miss you...
i am so dedicating this to you...r.m.
YouTube - Karla Bonoff - Standing Right Next To Me
earlier i was listening to my usual tunes when my itunes played this song. i recalled ( which i love doing..reminiscing the good old days) way back no matter how addict i was with MTV during the early 90's i never had or never did i saw the MTV of this song. i don't even know how Karla Bonoff looks like... all i know is that her voice! which i totally love! to my surprise on her video was Luke perry, then i wondered, is it a soundtrack of BEVERLY HILLS 90210? i was waiting for Brenda to show up but then a blonde girl came out, thought it was Kelly but then again it wasn't... then i remember it was from his movie 8 seconds... i remember my best friend (jonie) talking, raving about this movie back in 94 and we were in 4Th year high school I never had the chance to watch it =( so i don't know what the story line was.
all i know, one day i would say this line:
I used to have a wish
One day I'd feel like this.
Now I know love exists
Cause it's standing right next to me.
YouTube - The Pierces - We Are Stars (Acoustic Version)
i love their acoustics too..
YouTube - The Pierces - We Are Stars
frostwire doesn't have it yet =(
all i get for the result is their old dong "secret"
for now this is enuff..
YouTube - Pitbull ft. Trick Daddy - City Of Gods - Supply and Demand Mixtape
i can't find an mtv of it.. any way just to perk me up...
YouTube - Wilson Phillips - Hold on (Live on MTV)
You could sustain
Or are you comfortable with the pain?
You've got no one to blame for your unhappiness
You got yourself into your own mess
Lettin' your worries pass you by
Don't you think it's worth your time
To change your mind?
is time for me to change my mind? this is already getting painful for me... don't want to wait in vain for another day or can i still hold on? does your silence means goodbye already?
my mind tells me it does
but my heart still hopes....
YouTube - Adele - Rolling In The Deep
The scars of your love remind me of us,
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
I can't help feeling... =(
It's not everyday or every year we quiazons be all in one place. The last time we all had our picture taken and everyone was present was last 1989 and that was in Tagaytay... counting the years that's like 22 years ago and that's how long vince hasn't come home here. so when he called me up last sunday @ 9AM (my wake up call actually)... telling me that he is home! auntie net and bapa david immediately set up a dinner for the Q's @ fely j's in greenbelt 5. earlier my cousin mickey together with his girlfriend catherine, his mom and dad; bapa verne and auntie bils arrived from the states as well in time for macky's graduation on sunday may 22. sO after having lunch at carmenville with my aunts and cousins (mom's side) as well we hurriedly went to manila to have a quality time with the Q's... here in the picture are all the Q kids...usually i'm the only girl in the picture and their reigning princess...but not anymore as I am flanked by two mrs. Q's, 1 future mrs. Q... and the New generation ms. q... MAY 15, 2011 @ G5... us with our funny, dorky faces...
after six years of waiting for a baby... this year was God's given year for my good and close friend iris and her hubby henson see... her sisters in law gave her a not so surprise baby shower last may 14, 2011 @ fontana... what's so funny was after checking out at 12 noon in fontana that saturday i was back and it was almost the same villa where we stayed becuase it was just adjacent to it. with me in the picture are my very blooming and preggy friend iris and my favorite client mam I...i can't wait to see you CAITLIN...
after a long day's work and a very fun training... it was time to unwind... where else? at the pub! may 12, 2011... almost complete attendance of NL6.. with us is sir jay young... so cute but he's gay! And yes he calls me tweeny as well...(tweeny is my nickname with my nl6 family)
her excellency Governor Baby Pineda...with the banker's association of city of san fernando... may 17, 2011 @ fortune restaurant... with fellow chinabanker's branch managers robert basilio and rose yabut.
i am not a robot who doesn't have a heart or emotion.. in fact i am a sensitive person who is too emotional... but then again i am more understanding and a giver... i am just fed up with people who are very insensitive... when they do me wrong i stay quiet, understand their actions and try to forgive and forget... avoid any debate or anything that could lead to a conflict or misunderstanding... but how come when its my turn to malfunction and show tantrums how come i always look bad? is it maybe because i have a deeper penatration of understanding? its not fair!? really...it is not :((
i woke up with a heavy and sad heart today... despite the hectic schedule that i had... despite all the drinking for the past 3 days... those margaritas and tanduay ice didn't help me get numb... despite all the laughter while training... despite all the busy times at work... despite the super duper fun swimming like an 8 year old kid @ fontana... my heart feels empty... i don't know if i should be remoarseful of my decisions because i keep on risking myself to someone that i am sure of but he is not sure of me. how could it be so unfair all the time? i am always true but ALL he shows me ARE his inhibitions and secrets not to mention the rejection, embarrassment you put me through all the time... IS THERE something wrong wITH me? if you don't want to do anything with me all you have to do is say goodbye but please don't take me for granted :((
just take my heart if you go... i don't have the need for it anymore... i'll always love you but it's too hard to hold... if its not you at all maybe its better to be alone and lonely??? what good is a heart if its not sharing with someone you trully like?
while writing my blog... i was watching mortal combat at hbo... cheesy but i really loved that movie! it reminded me that it was the first movie that me and my brother were allowed to watch a movie at a movie house alone! i was like 14? and he was like 11? i guess we were... wayback when we were super young we were not allowed to go to the movie houses maybe because the old movie houses in angeles were offly rustic and filthy...if i'm not mistaken it was way back 93 that mortal combat was shown and it was in mega mall.. oh yes i don't remember which cinema it was! very memorable movie... my brother would agree with me that this is one of our favorite movies! i remember buying a tape of the original movie soundtrack after...
i miSS theSE SWEEt Words FRom You... i Miss your teXT in the morning... yOUR good morningS... your TEXt before we sleep... our DAilY jourNALS... on how was your day... telling me your fave songs...hoW COME we DON't do that anymore? or should IT be... how come you don't do that anymore? i WAnt to ASk YOu but i Don'T think I have the right...DON'T even HAve the right to deMAND...i hope your not preoccupied with someone! it would hurt me if it would be A SOmeone! your plEASure MY PAin :(( i miss yoU my one AND only RM... if onlY you WERE here...would reAlly REALLY love to hug And kiss you tendeRLy... i hOPE someday YOU will see ME through... i CAN'T wait For the day THat I will see you again... can I please see you? please...
YouTube - Merril Bainbridge Mouth
one of my forgotten fave songs
i totally remember merril's top with a big heart!
i uber like it!
so very pa cute! just like me!
YouTube - Sophie B. Hawkins- Damn I Wish I Was Your Lover (Released '92, Billboard #5)
she just makes me wanna shout it out!
really i do!!!!!!
YouTube - Tasmin Archer - Sleeping Satellite Acoustic Live at IAC 2008
this song made me feel good
after all the hating
she still have the voice
i remember way back 93
this song was my favorite
and it still is up to this day!
To my pure madness and loathe
I despise and abhor you
You are a total menace.
A threat and danger to my emotional stress
You are a total moron
A lazy pig that doesn’t have anything
A pathetic looser
Lord help me, I can’t even stand myself saying all these awful things
But it just suits you
Not even close to what sort of humiliation, mortification, shame and embarrassment you are putting me through!
Even in my dreams I was cursing
I don’t deserve the crap you are putting me through
Bad karma for you
Only time will tell and judge you for being an awful, horrendous and abysmal person!
I will have the last laugh!
my favorite photo of me
April 4, 2011
ocean adventure
subic
in all fairness this was a stolen shot
and I'm not even frowning!
i remember vividly (as in high resolution picture) in my mind during Saturdays when i watched hello kitty's cartoon on TV and that would make my day. very iconic to a lot of girls like me. i recall always going to gift gate at Sm north edsa or at cubao and would beg my mom to buy me anything hello kitty. and that anything would make me happy. wouldn't that be easy now? how i wish i was back to those years. worry free kid.
i swear, today is the most boring day i ever had! i had lunch with jeantot @ cinco de mayo but it was only a jiff because she needs to go to her grandma.. i went to carmelite and prayed after... i went home straight i felt too bored not to mention suffocated! watched feel good cartoon movies but it didn't made me feel better either. they made me sad even worst! i swear i am officially done with my solitary confinement! its taking over me in a bad way already! i called, i texted a lot as in a lot of friends! not to mention they all have something going on! is this the price i am paying for saying no during the time i said no to them? is the world shutting me out? so i swear next week i am going to parade myself and be visible again! i don't want to feel this ever again! its so hard to battle with!
i am a certified Blair fan! rock solid!
though sometimes i see myself in Serena (a bit)
now the question is?
who will she choose?
the prince?
the pauper?
the dark knight?
i am excited to see the latest episode " the kids stay in the picture"
i can't wait to see another moment of Blair and Dan..
but i still like chuck though..
check this picture of Blair and Dan..
http://www.tvfanatic.com/gallery/dair-moment/
