my lucky double 3

getting ready to blow my cake

and my wish is..

pristine... that's all i can say about my birthday this year.

it was God's Gift to me
unadulterated

no drama just pure happiness, just because i was thankful


surrounded by my parents, my brother, my sister in law and nephew
aunts, uncles, cousins
close friends

july 17, 2011
chara

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I make it a point to be positive always.

No room for negativity

Yes I cry, cry out loud if I need to…

Yes I hurt

Yes I suffer

Yes it pains me

Yes I undergo hardships in life

Yes I feel the heartbreaks

Yes I feel the humiliations

Yes I feel the stress and the pressure

After all those pessimism

I remain calm, peaceful and loved

I look up to my LORD, pray and sometimes question him what have I done or what have I not done for me to deserve all these damages.

And still I stand, face my new day with a smile always because I know My God loves me and will always give me something positive after all the adversities.

I only talk once about my problems, you would rarely hear me complain or utter unpleasant words against anybody or anything. I rather and chose always to talk about the fun stuff.

It upset me when my “SO CALLED FRIENDS” text me for help, they won’t even bother asking me if I am ok or if I feel good. They only know me when they need me.

Why? Do they know when I am in pain? Were any of them present during my darkest hour?

I sometimes tend to be too soft hearted with people because I am naturally a nice person it‘s not that obvious because a lot of people misjudge me.

I would like to thank my parents because they taught me on how to be independent on how not to bother other people or depend on other people.

If I ask for help it only means I am just trying to stir up attention and to have some company but not that abusive off course!

I am just fed up with many of my SO CALLED FRIENDS who just keep on neglecting me but when they want something they know me!

YouTube - ‪Aaliyah - At Your Best‬‏

YouTube - ‪Aaliyah - At Your Best



and why can't i not find a good MTV of my favorite song?
i cried when she died...
i used to imagine every time i hear this song way back 93
that aaliyah would be in my wedding serenading me and my would be hubby with this song
it always melts my heart out
i know its only an illusion
a fairy tale tailor made for me only
and i know one day, someday
it will come :D

Let me know, let me know
Ah - ha, let me know, let me know
Let me know
VERSE 1:
When I feel what I feel
Sometimes it's hard to tell you so
You may not be in the mood to learn what you think you know
There are times when I find
You want to keep yourself from me
When I don't have the strength; I'm just a mirror to what I see
CHORUS:
But at your best you are love
You're a positive motivating force within my life
Should you ever feel the need to wonder why
Let me know, let me know...
VERSE 2:
When you feel what you feel
Oh, how hard for me to understand
So many things have taken place before this love affair began
But if you feel, oh, like I feel
Confusion can give way to doubt
And there are times when I fall short of what I say,
What I say I'm all about, all about
CHORUS
BRIDGE:
Tell me what it is (Tell me what it is)
Make believe, no need to make believe
Look beyond your own (Look beyond your own)
Try and find another place for me
Cause...
CHORUS
Ah, ah, ah - ha
See, at your best baby
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meet our little princess...jane

meet our darling little princess Jane
oh yes she loves pink!
she introduced me to her little friends like plum and raspberry
she loves to dance and sing
true to my Bapa Verne's words Q girls are rare gems
they only come like every 10 years
i was the reigning princess of the Q's when Jessica was born 10 years later
then 20 years after Jessica it was already Jane
so if any of my married cousins are, will be expecting
wait for Jane to be 10!

YouTube - ‪Lisa Loeb - Stay (I Missed You)‬‏

YouTube - ‪Lisa Loeb - Stay (I Missed You)

not only she reminds me of my ever CAREFREE (who the hell cares) high school days
she really get me! she does!
as if she knows she needs to sing it for me
repeat (5x) playing and playing while driving...
everything about this song says it all...

the very famous black dress and eyeglasses...

You say I only hear what I want to.
You say I talk so all the time so.
And I thought what I felt was simple,
and I thought that I don't belong,
and now that I am leaving,
now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed you.
Yeah yeah, I missed you.
And you say I only hear what I want to:
I don't listen hard,
don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
to anyone, anywhere,
I don't understand if you really care,
I'm only hearing negative: no, no, no.
So I turned the radio on, I turned the radio up,
and this woman was singing my song:
lover's in love, and the other's run away,
lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay.
Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
dying since the day they were born.
Well, well, this is not that;
I think that I'm throwing, but I'm thrown.
And I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sure.
You try to tell me that I'm clever,
but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.
You said that I was naive,
and I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you.
Yeah, I miss you.
You said, "I caught you 'cause I want you and one day I'll let you go."
You try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you know you're just
scared to lose.
And you say, "Stay."
And you say I only hear what I want to.


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