oh how i LIKE it!

i love my hair
i love my look
i love my make up
i love my dress
i love the colors of my dress
i love my hair piece
i love my shoes
i love edsa shang
i love awards night
i love :)

things i miss from the past

memories are the only fragments of yesterday
and yes i do cherish all those very happy moments
its always been and always will
in my heart and in my memory i keep
always forgetting the yucky not so good events

i remember
my ima who loves me too much, takes care of me, shower me with love
my yaya lucy always tucking me in before i go to sleep
my yaya belen making sure i eat. She feds me and dress me up
my yaya alma listening to music over fm radio the whole making me love music in general
my yaya marie always sleeping beside me to make sure i wont catch any bad dream

my dad spoiling me after being scolded
when i told my mom to buy me those orange esprit rubber shoes in megamall
no stock when we got there so we needed to go to sm north edsa
when i wanted to have my own room and my brother started to share a room with me
when i tried smoking my ima's cigarettes out of boredom i caught my brother smoking too and we laughed so hard
when me and my brother used to fight a lot

my first crush when i was in grade 2, i forgot his name though
how tender was my first kiss
how sweet my first love was

hiding inside the closet of my cousin to avoid my dad
my cousin jade having heart to heart talks until we fall asleep
my catfight with my bestfriend jonie but we always end up making peace with each other
odeum days with bestfriend apple
super alcoholic road trips with charo, literally drink and drive
go to subic or tarlac and get drunk while driving
when me and my friends went to pangasinan and we all got busted
we went home late, my dad freaked out wanted to go to the police and wants to file a blotter!?
Manila escapades with janssen
endless carshow with paolo
tom and me watching maalala mo kaya
cut class with bhei go to ituro mo, hang out with aji
cut class again go to bataan with boh and baldo
endless telebabad with girl friends
highschool super school bukol
bullying other kids at school
endless drinking session

sleepless in marisol

i called two friends
chit chat a bit
to make me feel relax
but still i can't sleep
it's one of them days!

So i go on blabbing releasing my frustration...
Tnx to my blog instant diary :)

simple things

as janet j would sing '' best things in life are free''
indeed, by all means they are for free
but very hard to get :(
i only got a simple wish
but how come that wish is too hard to reach?
i dont want to end up alone
it is so hard when people just touch and go
splash and dash
in and out
barge in and barge out
why wont someone stop?
Stay and be sincere?
Are those things too much to ask for?

drown

lately i had been too transparent
i need to hide my emotions
i need to control it
as bic runga would sing ''my head is battling with my heart my logic has been torn apart''

i dont want to drown myself..
Smile... Just smile
Fake it to make it

anyway i dont want to get all wrinkly and old...
Wasting and drifting from not so good thoughts...
Life is too short to spend it with negative vibes..

As i would always put it '' better days to come''

its not the way i usually plan

too many times
too many situation
not a single moment that i plan on things
i am not like my brother very focused
when he says its gonna be like this and that..believe me it is gonna be a firm one!
as my favorite word "Spontaneity" I applied that word too much
sometimes and most of the times i should not


but i tell you free falling sometimes or most of the time are the most blissful moment..

lethargic training

sleeped deprived
slow motion
not my senses
emotional


to the happy feet of CDL it scared the hell out of me
was able to sleep around 12 midnight but when i suddenly woke up i saw the happy feet smiling at me...i cant help but to laugh and laugh

now back to not sleeping

ok

try to get me some sleep


my amiga and ulat and snoring cdl with me inside the room

oh what a veryyyy longggg day..