lethargic training

sleeped deprived
slow motion
not my senses
emotional


to the happy feet of CDL it scared the hell out of me
was able to sleep around 12 midnight but when i suddenly woke up i saw the happy feet smiling at me...i cant help but to laugh and laugh

now back to not sleeping

ok

try to get me some sleep


my amiga and ulat and snoring cdl with me inside the room

oh what a veryyyy longggg day..

why does it has to be complicated?

avril is that you?
Why can it not to be as simple as a true love's kiss and live happily ever after?
Can i not get my happy ending?
As sir martin would say, with matching singing bruno mars' just the way you are..
My big boss giving me a lecture on love notes over some drinks..
He made me think so hard.. Sorry to burst your bubble sweetheart he said but you better think.
Why? Why? Why?
Why should it be such a game of love?
Why? Why? Why
im not the type who is clingy, wether alone or what ever i can and know what to do.
But basically i'm just tired of being alone
i dont want to grow old alone
i know someday .....
I pray and i pray and pray so hard..

longing for some quality time

i am greatful that i have a very lucrative job but sometimes it gets me. All of that is. All the time for myself is kinda gone.
I rarely have time to be alone. I miss the days when i own my time. I can sleep the whole day. Watch movies via cable tv. See all the series i love. Facebook all i can. just basically stay at home and do nothing. relax the whole day. do some errands, go to the mall carefree. Now i only have like a day to do all of this and a day is not enuff!!! Sometimes i dont plan on going out but in just a spur of the moment i have a friend calling and inviting me out. Sometimes i am bored sometimes i am having a blast. Since last night i have been working and went home like 12 midnight. I needed to wake up early because i need to work. The whole day we have an event. And untill now its 9 minutes to 10 in the evening and i am still out when i could only think about my bed and sleep on it. I had been sleepless not to mention i feel so uninspired. Someone whom i really like, well havent heard from him the whole day. It just gets me. I dont know. As i always say daze and confused. Oh well who am i anyway? Just a nobody!? Well i hope in a few minutes will be able to go home. Get me some luxurious bath and a quality sleep. For now lets just drink to that! Bottoms up!

valentines day anyone?

what else is new?
nothing spectacular about this day
it always was to me
(though in my heart, off course who wouldn't want to have that special someone!)

thank you to my friends who texted me and extended their greetings..

just one message though got me. it says:
Happy Valentines! I will always have strong feelings of love and care towards you! Miss you!

oh well too late for you ;(

Don't LET Go...en vouge

another decade i am stuck is the 90's


just listening to it earlier

Oooh, yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Hey, yeah, hey, yeah

1-What's it gonna be?
'Cause I can't pretend
Don't you wanna be more than friends?
Hold me tight and don't let go
Don't let go
You have the right to lose control
Don't let go

I often tell myself
That we could be more than just friends
I know you think that if we move too soon
It would all end
I live in misery when you're not around
And I won't be satisfied
Till we've taken those vows

2-There'll be some lovemaking
Heart breaking, soul shaking
Love ooh aah
Lovemaking, heart breaking
Soul shaking
(repeat 1)

I often fantasize the stars above, oh, a chill
They know my heart and speak to yours
Like only lovers do
If I could wear your clothes
I'd pretend I was you, and lose control
(rpt 2, 1)

Running in and out my life
Has got me so confused
You gotta make the sacrifice
Somebody's gotta chose
We can make it if we try
For the sake of you and I
Together we can make it right

What's it going to be?
Can't keep running in and out of my life
Out of my life
More than friends, oh, oh, oh
Hold me tight and don't let me go
You've got the right
I said you've got the right to lose control
Yeah, yeah, yeah, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

Don't break up 'cause I can't take it

just a dream

listening to nelly's Just a Dream

nothing much to say today but i was very hungry!!!!!
still need to go out and get my pictures and need to meet a client..


wish me luck!

all these in one day :(

it was a normal February 3, 2011 and it was a Thursday. It was my typical routine drop off mom at the office, the only thing different was my dad was with us because he had a courtesy call with the mayor. So right after i drop them both i went off to take my usual route...nlex. When i was about to turn left a stupid moron came crashing. It smashed my front lower bumper, i thought it was the end of me. I was so teary eyed that i need to have a strong front because i saw the man who hit my car was old not to mention he was a police! How do i know this? Because as soon as he went off his car he wore his stupid maybe a fake i.d to that matter! Just to brush me off and make sure i will be scared! To my shocked i reversed my car as soon as he hit me. I was so terrified at that moment because i thought i was about to die. I called my dad asap and he went running for me. It was all black, blurry moment.a police same to respond immediately to investigate the incident. The moron asked me instantly if i have an insurance. Its not that i have an insurance or not i just want him to admit his mistake which he never did. Why is it because I'm a girl, you think i don't know how to drive!? Well hello to you i had been driving since i was like what? 14!!! Driving has always been my favorite and not to mention my passion. We all end up at the police station near my mom's office. They was a certified hustler, he knows what he will say, do and write with his report. So the drama ended with a fake hand shake from that moron. I called my friend to call the police, i went to marquee to check on the cameras. I was at my mom's office the whole time and around 10 a.m i realized i didn't have breakfast. That was the only time that i realized haven't eaten...
So all these in one day:
i almost died, but thank you still my God i am alive
my car got crashed and smashed but thank you God only minor things.
I lost my appetite, i lost weight i think..till now i cant eat well. Oh how i wish my appetite will be back to normal.
I was able to be strong to ask how someone whom i really like, likes me and i was strong enuff to take the truth.

I know there will be better days to come :)